Welcome to my blog
THEWARRIORLADY
I first created this little corner of the universe as a way to help my mental health. Talking is therapy, when I felt I couldn't talk, instead I would pour the words and emotions out into this blog. Sharing is also therapy, sharing our human experiences, good and bad, the heartbreak, the adventures we've had. That connection, that having something in common with someone, the support and the knowledge that you are not in this alone, that is healing.
I'm an adventurer at heart I love to explore new places, cultures and people. One of my favourite memories is sitting on the Spanish steps in Rome and people watching, watching the world go by. All these people coming and going, who are they, what is their story, what makes their soul happy? What keeps them awake at night? Aging isn't linear, its just levelling up in life. I am a sucker for sitting with those at a higher level than myself and hearing stories about their pasts, about their parents and families long departed, about their history and their loves. There is something spectacularly beautiful in a life well lived and lived with love.
It's not all sunshine and rainbows though, life. I like to hear of people's darkness, of things they rarely speak about, the pains that have shaped them and made them who they are today, their scars, operations, battle wounds from life, their broken hearts and their grief because there is beauty in the darkness too, because in that discomfort is where the growth takes place.
No smooth sea made a skilled sailor.
When life allows it, the mountains and the countryside are my home. Betws-y-Coed is my soul place. I feel most at peace and at one with the universe when I am there. I don't believe in your atypical "God" but boy do I believe in energy, in the flow of life, in the universe. I'm a strong believer in that every thing happens for a reason, good and bad, it's either a blessing or a lesson. I believe in fate, in destiny. The power of the moon, it's pull of our tides and how it affects our moods. There's something more to it. There's a reason they call getting out in nature a healer, you cannot beat sitting in the depths of the woods or on the top of a mountain and just listening to the silence. Closing your eyes and feeling the breeze on your face, in your hair. Smelling the salt from the ocean or the woody musky smells of the forest. It calms your soul. We are more at one with this earth than we may ever realise.
Why THEWARRIORLADY you ask?
Simply put. I have been fighting since day one. I am not just strong, I am not just a fighter. I am a Warrior.
I was born into domestic violence. I was physically, mentally and emotionally abused growing up and witnessed things no child should have to witness. I was sexually abused up until the age of 14. I am a suicide survivor. I spent many years self harming. I myself repeated the pattern of my parents and was in a domestic violence relationship from aged 18-29. I left with no true identity having trauma bonded and lived most of my life in DV I had a lot of toxic and learned behaviour patterns to unlearn, the healing was brutal. I have relapses to this day.
The little details....
My name is Stephanie Arthur Hope
I'm a very proud mother of 5 beautiful head strong, full of character, free spirited, kind hearted children.
My children gave my life purpose and a reason to continue when I felt like it had non.
I love animals-all animals. I wanted to be a vet when I was a child, but just couldn't face having to put an animal to sleep.
My favourite animals are red foxes, wolves and the barn owl (I have The Labyrinth and David bowie to thank for that one)
My Favourite flowers are Hydrangeas and their kaleidoscope of colours but in particular blue.
I love flowers and I like to embroider.
I adore baking - welsh cakes are my favourite!
My favourite colours are the colours of the sunset and forest green.
My favourite season is Autumn.
I'm a foodie, I love food, especially ice cream though I'm lactose intolerant - I'm a vegetarian.
My eyes are strange, they're sometimes blue, sometimes green, sometimes a mixture and I have a brown nevus in my right eye.
I have Endometriosis, Fibromyalgia, Hypothyroidism, Spondylitis (L4&L5)and IBS
Basically my immune system hates me. I have chronic vestibular migraines.
Immune disorders run in my families genetics and two of my children are type1 diabetic.
Therefor I am a JDRF advocator for diabetes and fundraise often.
I had a cervical cancer scare in 2015 and had to have cells removed.
I had a breast cancer scare in 2018 - I have fibrocystic breast tissue.
I have a diploma in Fitness & Nutrition and have a certificate in diabetic diet and care.
I have been diagnosed with body dysmorphia, general anxiety disorder and PTSD.
I have a binge eating disorder which I would say is 90% under control.
I aim to advocate for abuse and mental health.
And to empower others to grow and to be the best version of themselves.
I want to be a teacher or a counsellor or both!
I can communicate in BSL (British sign language)
Only in the last five years do I feel I have joined the path on my life's purpose towards being who I truly am destined to be.
THEWARRIORLADY
I first created this little corner of the universe as a way to help my mental health. Talking is therapy, when I felt I couldn't talk, instead I would pour the words and emotions out into this blog. Sharing is also therapy, sharing our human experiences, good and bad, the heartbreak, the adventures we've had. That connection, that having something in common with someone, the support and the knowledge that you are not in this alone, that is healing.
I'm an adventurer at heart I love to explore new places, cultures and people. One of my favourite memories is sitting on the Spanish steps in Rome and people watching, watching the world go by. All these people coming and going, who are they, what is their story, what makes their soul happy? What keeps them awake at night? Aging isn't linear, its just levelling up in life. I am a sucker for sitting with those at a higher level than myself and hearing stories about their pasts, about their parents and families long departed, about their history and their loves. There is something spectacularly beautiful in a life well lived and lived with love.
It's not all sunshine and rainbows though, life. I like to hear of people's darkness, of things they rarely speak about, the pains that have shaped them and made them who they are today, their scars, operations, battle wounds from life, their broken hearts and their grief because there is beauty in the darkness too, because in that discomfort is where the growth takes place.
No smooth sea made a skilled sailor.
When life allows it, the mountains and the countryside are my home. Betws-y-Coed is my soul place. I feel most at peace and at one with the universe when I am there. I don't believe in your atypical "God" but boy do I believe in energy, in the flow of life, in the universe. I'm a strong believer in that every thing happens for a reason, good and bad, it's either a blessing or a lesson. I believe in fate, in destiny. The power of the moon, it's pull of our tides and how it affects our moods. There's something more to it. There's a reason they call getting out in nature a healer, you cannot beat sitting in the depths of the woods or on the top of a mountain and just listening to the silence. Closing your eyes and feeling the breeze on your face, in your hair. Smelling the salt from the ocean or the woody musky smells of the forest. It calms your soul. We are more at one with this earth than we may ever realise.
Why THEWARRIORLADY you ask?
Simply put. I have been fighting since day one. I am not just strong, I am not just a fighter. I am a Warrior.
I was born into domestic violence. I was physically, mentally and emotionally abused growing up and witnessed things no child should have to witness. I was sexually abused up until the age of 14. I am a suicide survivor. I spent many years self harming. I myself repeated the pattern of my parents and was in a domestic violence relationship from aged 18-29. I left with no true identity having trauma bonded and lived most of my life in DV I had a lot of toxic and learned behaviour patterns to unlearn, the healing was brutal. I have relapses to this day.
The little details....
My name is Stephanie Arthur Hope
I'm a very proud mother of 5 beautiful head strong, full of character, free spirited, kind hearted children.
My children gave my life purpose and a reason to continue when I felt like it had non.
I love animals-all animals. I wanted to be a vet when I was a child, but just couldn't face having to put an animal to sleep.
My favourite animals are red foxes, wolves and the barn owl (I have The Labyrinth and David bowie to thank for that one)
My Favourite flowers are Hydrangeas and their kaleidoscope of colours but in particular blue.
I love flowers and I like to embroider.
I adore baking - welsh cakes are my favourite!
My favourite colours are the colours of the sunset and forest green.
My favourite season is Autumn.
I'm a foodie, I love food, especially ice cream though I'm lactose intolerant - I'm a vegetarian.
My eyes are strange, they're sometimes blue, sometimes green, sometimes a mixture and I have a brown nevus in my right eye.
I have Endometriosis, Fibromyalgia, Hypothyroidism, Spondylitis (L4&L5)and IBS
Basically my immune system hates me. I have chronic vestibular migraines.
Immune disorders run in my families genetics and two of my children are type1 diabetic.
Therefor I am a JDRF advocator for diabetes and fundraise often.
I had a cervical cancer scare in 2015 and had to have cells removed.
I had a breast cancer scare in 2018 - I have fibrocystic breast tissue.
I have a diploma in Fitness & Nutrition and have a certificate in diabetic diet and care.
I have been diagnosed with body dysmorphia, general anxiety disorder and PTSD.
I have a binge eating disorder which I would say is 90% under control.
I aim to advocate for abuse and mental health.
And to empower others to grow and to be the best version of themselves.
I want to be a teacher or a counsellor or both!
I can communicate in BSL (British sign language)
Only in the last five years do I feel I have joined the path on my life's purpose towards being who I truly am destined to be.
